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Debut album.
© Vanessa Hartley-McDonald, Sobria Records 2014

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released February 26, 2014

Flute - Katy Ashby on track 1
Violin - Amelia Gilmartin on track 2; Annalise Lam on tracks 4, 6, 7 and 10
Lead guitar - Jennie Copeland on track 3
Harmonica - Henry Slim on tracks 6, 7 and 8
Bass and lead guitar - E McDonald on tracks 8 and 9
Drums - Ashley Howell on track 9
Backing vocals - Julia Turner, Estelle, Ellis and Dian Hartley-McDonald on track 8

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Eleanor VS. Bristol, UK

Eleanor Verses. Singer and writer of songs from Bristol. I like all sorts of music - my sound's a mix of jazz, folk and soul.

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Track Name: Start
Can I start again?
Turn around
Do this thing over again?
Take it back, take a step
Be something else
Can I start again?

What do you want from me?
Do you want me to join your family?
Leave my home, what I knew
Be someone else?
What do you want from me?

Can I start again?
I’d like to reintroduce myself
Myself
Can I start again?
Track Name: Black Hole
Swallow me whole, get me out of sight
I know you know I’m scared to death
What kind of role are you supposed to play?
‘Cause it doesn’t work, though I’m out of breath
You try so hard to make me fall
It almost works but it’s worth the stress
‘Cause I survive it
There’s need to describe it
‘Cause someone might need to know
And they won’t need to guess

Like I did ‘cause nobody told me
Like I did ‘cause nobody told me

CHORUS
I’m falling through your atmosphere
I don’t know how I got here
Or why I always end up here
Or why I don’t mind being here
You’re always something different
‘Cause I’m always listening
To what you have to say
You can take a little piece of me
But don’t swallow me whole
Black hole

It’s not easy to see where I’m going
How can I know where not to tread?
I can’t believe
My eyes must be deceiving me
Carefully relieving me of common sense

Like before, but this time I’m learning
Like before, but this time I’m learning

You don’t have permission to take me
Though I’m in your grounds
I’ll find my way out
Just to be caught again
You have permission to break me
Though I’m not in one piece
I’ll take care of me
And things will inevitably change

Like before, but this time I’m learning
Like before, but this time I’m learning

Someone might need to know
Track Name: Stumbling Block
Lying down, arms at your side
Face flat
You breathe stealthily
Minimum amounts of oxygen
Eyes closed, mind open to improvisation
Anything goes / Your thoughts aren’t healthily
Nourishing mine
Loss of zen

Two tonnes, three tonnes
Pile it on; let me know when you’re done

CHORUS
If you’re not in the way
You are added, unnecessary weight
Apparently I deserved to be paid back
And if you’re not what you say
You are pointless, futile energy to waste
Apparently I’ve been trying to evade tax

At ease, your job’s a breeze
And a lot
You deal, carefully
As many cards as I can take in
A game of Cheat, except I didn’t cheat
All you do is awfully
At a bad time
When to meet

Four tonnes, five tonnes
Pile it on; let me know when we’re having fun

Two tonnes, three tonnes
Pile it on; let me know
Four tonnes, five tonnes
Pile it on; let me know
Six tonnes, seven tonnes
Pile it on; let me know
Oh, leave me alone
Track Name: Thanatophobia
Beauty in life
It takes years to come to light
Another year and it is lost and flung aside
Beauty in strife
Respiratory failures
And the medicines and studies
To keep you alive

CHORUS
Scared of dying young
And a fear of dying old and alone
But if you could choose the day
Don’t pretend to know
Because you’d just let it go

Beauty in crime
Wait ‘til somebody dies
So you can take their heart
Or liver to survive
Beauty in time
Waiting patiently your turn
And all of the people lying their way
To the front of the line
But if it’s out
And maybe you’re just late
And your cells are dying deaths
That cannot be replaced

Ugliness tries to grab you by the neck
Intertwine itself with life
And tries to get ahead
And you can be sure that it will come to visit
It will try its best to send you running scared
But if you fight
You can finish what your parents started
Or fight because you’ve still got some fight left

CHORUS 2
Scared of dying free
And a fear of dying bound
Scared of being brave
And a fear of crying out
Scared but we all want you
To be happy
And prepared

Beauty in life
It takes years to come to life
The knowledge that whether
You’re wrong or your right
We all die
The difference is whether you give up
Or you stand up tall and look it in the eye
Track Name: Trying & Failing
Been trying and failing to read Shakespeare
A little failure here, a little tragedy there
And karma’s not a nice one
But it’s been waiting for its opportunity
Been trying and failing to keep off the beer
A little drink here, a little fall there
No, karma’s not a nice one
But it’s been hiding and camping out for weeks

CHORUS
Truth is the roof is caving in
Under this strain I’m living in
Fact is someday I’m going to stretch
My leg right out and kick the bucket

Been trying and failing to stay away
From little dangers here and little accidents there
‘Cause karma’s never been my friend
But it’s been hanging ‘round like it knows me
Been trying and failing to keep out of the way
Of little villains here and little menaces there
No, karma’s never been my friend
But it’s been living and keeping me company

Been trying and failing to get a life
Nobody sells them here and
I’m not going over there
Track Name: Looking Up At Me Looking Down
Insurmountable
I’m looking up at me looking down
If I should fall, break a bone
You’ll tell me that you told me so
And if I try to climb
To aspire to be my future self
If I don’t make it, you’ll just laugh
In the kindest way you ever have
Still it’ll cut like glass

CHORUS
Mercy, Father, have mercy
Could I get what I need please?
‘Cause I need some sort of education
But I’d prefer edification
Mercy, Father have mercy
Mercy, mercy, mercy

Insurmountable
I’m looking ‘round, trying to figure out how
How, how, how
How to get to where you earned
But cut out all of that hard work
And if I dare to venture
Get lost somewhere in Australia
If I should fail, you’ll tell me I
Didn’t try as hard as I have might
The will and the drive
It’s nice
But it hurts me inside

Insurmountable
I’m looking in as I’m meddling
With my 60-year-old wine
Trying to get drunk before my time
And if I stay on the line
Let You pull me up with all Your might
If the line frays and breaks
You’ll tell me I should have a little faith
Don’t get cute
‘Cause it could be my fate
Track Name: Don't Force The Hand
Don’t force the hand
Don’t tell the tale
Until you have
Enough to say
Details come ‘round the block
The wind makes sails
Hang taut
Yet relaxed enough to obey

Don’t push the boat
Out for display
Don’t pretend
That your path has already been paved
Death claims and trickery plays
The same old game
You know their place
But you still avoid them like the plague

Don’t tell the world
“I know my way,”
And, “I have been
“I’ve been here before
“And I’ll climb out again”
Be true to what’s inside of you
And your pale blue veins
You are human
You’re the same
You have fear and love and faith

Now let’s talk straight
Track Name: Free
I wanna say to you
Enjoy your life
Please try for me
‘Cause you’re stress-free and carefree
You have no real worries
So please live for you
And nobody else
Make use of every hour that comes your way

CHORUS
When complications don’t exist
And words can never break your heart
When feelings do not cloud your mind
And ache does not attack your heart
That’s when you are free
So enjoy, for me, your life

I wanna say to you
Don’t give up
When things get tough
And just cry
‘Cause it sorts out your life
And things work out in time
So please live for you
And nobody else
Make use of every hour that comes your way
Track Name: Backseat Driver
I’ve been comatose trying to fit the college scene
And to stay afloat, I rearranged my phraseology
And I voted, in my psyche, to promote this gross mess
‘Til it was bye-bye birdie
But ever since You helped me build that boat
Didn’t need the stress and strains anymore
It rowed me out of that place
Similar to a pharmacy
Selling drugs I didn’t need

CHORUS
And on that note, I’d like to change all that I know
I’d like true feelings to show
And show that you don’t have to be
Inside a taxi
Just because it’s the only place
Where you get to drive in the backseat
No, I wanna be that first domino

I’ve been underlining all that’s not right
Switching teams to confuse my eyes
And I agreed, in my mind, to wait in the hotel lobby
Wanting other people’s lives
But ever since You helped me find the beat
Danced complicatedly to my relief
It got me out of magnified, terrifying plight
Now the whole thing’s being rectified

I’ve been nodding to show that I agree
I’ve been plodding along
Because I never felt that I should speak
Tell the taxi driver to drive
The hotel room was not alright
I took a bite of that life
And now the wrong is magnified
I have a feeling that I’m right
I have a feeling that I’m right
And if I have to be a proselyte
I wanna be an Israelite
Track Name: Travelling Time
The nostalgia has not gone away
It’s just not as strong as the other day
I’m travelling time in my head
I’m seeing the fire that we lit
And I can touch it
But I can’t snuff it out
But I’m touching it

And I’m protected because it’s not real anymore
So why does it feel like it’s more real than before?
Because I’m travelling time in my head
And there are colours that don’t exist yet
Where we met

And faith, it just enhances the day
The sun streams through and lights my face
And this time, when I think of you
I don’t want you
I just want you well to do
‘Cause I can see you
But right now I don’t need you
But I can see you

And I’m disconnected because it’s not here anymore
So why does it feel like we’re chained forever and then some more?
It’s because I’m travelling time in my head
And now there are shades in the silhouette
So no regrets

Hoping history will repeat itself
So, presently, I won’t disgrace myself
I’d like a chance to make it right again
But I want you to choose to hear me out, old friend
Because I owe it
But I’ve never known it
But I owe it and I wanna show it
I owe it and I wanna show it
So just let me show it

And I’m resurrected ‘cause I don’t kill myself anymore
And I’m not scared ‘cause I don’t know fear anymore
And because I’m travelling time in my head
There’s no more time to be upset
Just to reflect

I’m travelling time in my head
And the reverie burns like a cigarette
Just so we don’t forget

I’m travelling time in my head
And there are shades in our silhouette
No regrets
Track Name: Everything Is Nothing
Thank You for making me me
Thank You for everything that makes or breaks me
‘Cause everything soon will be nothing
If I don’t have You
If I don’t have You

When I’m stuck in mud
You have the guts
When nobody else does

Thank You for making me faithful
Thank You for everything that makes me grateful
‘Cause everything soon will be nothing
If I’m not with You
If I’m not with You

When I have no hope
You hold me close
And then I know that You care

Thank You for loving me when I shouldn’t be loved
Thank You for showing me
That You could only come from above
‘Cause everything soon will be nothing
If I don’t love You
If I don’t love You

When I have nothing
You’re everything
And anything that I’ll need
When I have no hope
You hold me close
And then I know that You care
When I’m stuck in mud
You have the guts
When nobody else does